Inferior.

ahh. life in school.

it really makes me think. Does God bless every person equally? maybe not.

elliot.

Skilled in swimming is unmatched.
Diploma in violin.
Artist in the making.
IB intellect.

And michael?
Well, I thought since my studies suck so bad, I should have been blessed in maybe one area, lets say arts.

Of course, michael got 100 which burned past my 97 for last year in art.
and wha'd ya know, he gets highest in class for higher chinese for term one this year, compared to a measly 54 of mine.

it was all on the wrong foot. why do i always start out bad?

first it was basketball in primary school. a match with the points 4 - 201 doesn't really speak much of our school. a heck lot, in the wrong terms that is.

then secondary school. hawkey. right. and to think i thought it would be a lot better than basketball. i obviously have a knack for starting wrong.

there had to be something. i thought there was something in for me in the arts, whether acting singing or visual.

singing? maybe last time, now? my voice is going away like a bottomless hourglass, and when its shed its old skin, what if its new skin has no shine at all? and if it fails, what about plmc vocalist team? i hope she isn't right.

acting? haha, nothing compared to van or anyone else for that matter.

and arts? last year was 97, this year so many people burning the heat up faster.

i feel like a speck of dust on the gold coin, the one who was not polished properly.
why? surely, just surely, the vision God gave my aunty Angie was real.

there has to be something, but for now...

inferiority takes place.