confusion.

3 weeks have gone.

and i have spent one and a half away from my hometown.
i'm not much of a patriot anyway.

and the other half of the second week?
entertaining and having fun with my cousin from england.

and then...let's see.
the third week was spent on slacking, homework-ing, playing computer, blogging, msn-ing, and sleeping mainly.
kinda a lot of stuff to use the word 'mainly'.

and this week has been.
fun. and saddening.

on monday.
just stayed at home and slacked and home-worked.

tuesday.
went to carnival with heather mao, tricia chee, gracelynn, and of course - my bro.
it was.
fun & sickening.
cos we went on the really expensive ride right after dinner.
and that sparked off a chain of sicknesses that decided to target my bro.

wednesday.
not much. slacked at home as far as i can recall.
i think i finished my life science gene therapy report on this day.
wasn't THAT an interesting piece of info for all of you.

thursday.
oh yes. there was a cell outing.
how fun.
the minute i get there, the ads hadn't even started. (we were watching fantastic 4)
i wanted to meet them there, since i didn't wanna go for the lan.
so, the screen was blank.
i walk into the theatre with thaddeus and marcus shouting their usual greeting of 'fwee jie jie!'
and then i sit on the right of jeremy ling.
on his left is jon choy.
who greets, 'ryan, you're late.'
how very nice.
and the ads STILL hadn't presented themselves yet.

all this in a nutshell - i was annoyed before the movie started.

and so. the movie was ok.
the good stuff were the graphics and...and...yepp. the graphics.
i like the evil planet consumer.

dinner at long john silvers.
it was ok.
i didn't like the black pepper sauce.
the rice was good though.
i didn't have any fish?
cos i prefer chicken. ^^

friday.
stoned at home doing the usual. i think.

saturday.
went out with my om friends.
watched surf's up!
it's better than F4.

ate swensen's for afternoon tea after that.

went home. went out for extended family dinner.
too bad my bro couldn't come cos he had a contagious eye sore.
or was HE the contagious eye sore? XD

dinner was full-filling.
a lot of ta pow.
or however you spell it.

sunday.
this was the saddening day.
went church.
saw gracelynn, heather, and jon yuen on 3rd floor.
jon yuen and i were wondering where our cell was.
chatted a bit with gracelynn and heather.

marcus came to collect us.
said cell was at jonchoy's hse.

cell had word this time.
jon choy made us memorise Ex 6:1-3.
after cell, browsed thru photos of past cluster outings and camps.

went back to church. 'studied' with heather and gracelynn.
gracelynn kept demoralising herself in graphs (Stop!)
and heather couldn't stop talking.

then, it happened.
my bro called me to go home.
we had to go for a father's day lunch.

i went to the lift.
and the next thing i know,
jonathan teng pulls me towards the table.
damn.
said hi to grace chan.
couldn't hear what bunny said.
tried to distract myself and point fingers at joseph for something about heather.
it was foolish, i should have just gotten out.
but then it would have been too obvious.
anyway, there was already visual contact.

that killed a lot of what time had spent so much of itself to build up.
it really hurt after that.
more than what i had felt for a long time.
which just goes to show.
that with less interaction,
i can forget about it better.

it's so hard to understand.
so complicated.
why can't i just forget?!
it's distracting and confusing me.

there's one week left.
promises a lot of potential.
how am i going to spend it?