suffocation.

this is a poem relating to my previous post on freedom.

suffocation
it's spinning round and round.
the pain, the claustrophobia.
in a gurgling whirlpool, drown!
or just plain paranoia?

twisters fill your head,
cos' the mind doesn't know.
if reality's so dead,
when will God's true plan show?

head cats have the say,
and many mice just follow.
old concrete, flat, passe.
and all of men, rot hollow.

twisters fill your head,
cos' your mind can't comprehend.
if all this has been laid,
what is freedom to a man?

freedom.

haven't blogged in quite a while, hope y'all liked "kiwi!". (:


what is true freedom?

well, i'd say it's when one is not bound by any shackles, be it literally or figuratively.

one might say or exclaim, "I'm free!" when his or her homework assignments are completed. One would shout 'Freedom!', when the school bell rings, and the tons of restless students pour out of the classrooms.

freedom, might be believed to be all above.

but is this word really taken seriously?
are we all truly free at times like this?
our philosophy could be, "work's done, let's do whatever we want."

but then again, are we actually FREE to do so?

i bring it back to the topic of God's will. (I debated with cleo about this.)
like i said before, if God knows the future, theoretically, we wouldn't be able to choose our actions.

these are the facts laid out.

1. God already KNOWS what we did in the future.
2. There can only be ONE future.
3. God, being perfect, can never be wrong.

Given these three facts, isn't it safe to say that whatever we do, we're already destined by his knowledge, cos if he knows, for e.g., I would have wrote this blog post last year, then I definetely would have, for if I didn't, I would have defied his knowledge and that is just impossible.

UNLESS. given the theory that if God is of another dimension, He's not from this world (although when I was young I used to think that heaven was the gap between the universe and the sky, i don't know why. pretty stupid.), thus if He's not from this world, then the worldly elements, such as time, matter, space, might not be able to be related to Him, and the theory of God's foreknowledge determining our actions would be invalid.

So in short, we're either destined by his knowledge.
or we just can't compare.

also, there's God's law.
the ten commandments, love one another, love God, Spread the gospel (k, that's not really His law, but it was kinda like an order?).

and if i had wings i would fly,
cos' all that i need, You are.
and if the world caved in around me.
to You I'd still hold on.
Cos You're all that I believe.
You're the one that created me.
Jesus, because of You...
I'm Free!

when we say we're free in the Lord, we're talking about his salvation and we're like, delivered from evil. but we're not free, like to do what we want.

Even if you aren't christian, what about normal law?
With politics and advanced civilizations nowadays, law can be sniffed in your own home, your school backyard, every darn place has law!
if true freedom were abound, law would be gone.

of course, i'm not disproving of the law or anything, we can't have serial killers stabbing people on the street and luniac rapists going around terrorizing women, and then the whole world would fall into complete chaos.

i'm just saying, i don't think there's such a thing as true freedom, because of security in the world nowadays, and the will of God.
it's not an entirely bad thing, but i guess it has to be done for the sake of security.

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the holidays are real sian.
bloody sian.
crap.
it's so sian.

yesterday's sushi buffet was good though. (: