to the cross.

recently, i had been feeling kinda bad, off and on, because i felt like a few of my friendships were straining...or the people involved were drifting apart.

and like... other family stuff.

but when i look to the cross,
and realise how Jesus was so rejected as well,
and people didn't appreciate Him for who He was,
although He was the Ultimate...

then i just feel comforted knowing that even if my friends don't fully appreciate me as much as i'd like them too, at least God appreciates me, and that's the best relationship. (:

and still, God works,
cos He showed me how my friend did appreciate me more than i thought. (:


so if any of you feel down because you feel under-appreciated, or feel like you're relationships are straining...
remember Jesus, and God's love, and lift all up to Him. (:

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also, i realised how to confirm.
once again, if Christ and God is the focus.
i learn how to differentiate.
and i learn how to know.

and now i know, that i truly don't.
thanks to cremon (:
for reminding me that if it IS, it has to be GOD-CALLED.
and one has to control his emotions, at all costs.

because emotions are of the flesh.
but you want IT to be of God.
and i know that this liking, wasn't called by God.
so i fee liberated.

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oh and service today was AWESOME.
you could feel God and the Holy Spirit just manifesting in the hall.
and i felt like God was watching pastor reuben just preach, and God was immensely proud.

worship was...convicting for me.
it made me realise i shouldn't be doing some things that i was doing.
not to distract my eyes with evil.
but to focus on the Spirit, on God, and on the cross.





to the cross we look.

speechless.

connecTiNG camp.
the P6 Orientation Camp for PLMC, organised by the sec 3s, bridging the gap between SilverBoxes (children's service) and The Next Generation (youth service).
it's really been the highlight of these holidays so far.

well, camp comm. had to write reflections to be published in HeartBeat, so i submitted this, which pretty much sums up the camp...on a more formal tone.

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Thinking about the P6 Orientation Camp, “ConnecTiNG”, really leaves me quite speechless, as there are just too many things to say.

We started planning this camp in August, and after all plans were finalized, the camp was executed from 7-9 November. For me, it felt like the camp was actually running for 3 months, because the whole process was just so amazing, and the people I was working with were awesome.

Even as I write this, I miss the camp, as there seems to be an emptiness somewhere, but I’m comforted in the fact that ConnecTiNG will live on, and that next year there will be new leaders to bring the new juniors in. (:

Well, there are two things that I would really like to say.

At the beginning of the camp, I for one, was extremely worried that the P6s would not have opened up. They all came with faces of stone, and through the first few icebreakers were withdrawn and unenthusiastic.

However, as the camp progressed through, and the games and group activities went on, their faces were loosened, and smiles appeared, until at the end of all, many even gave feedback that the camp was too short! I believe this camp has really started the journey for the P6s together as a cluster, and sown the seeds of bonding in their hearts. I’m thankful that this camp served as an effective bridge to an otherwise abrupt change from SilverBoxes to TNG, as now the P6s know quite a handful of their TNG seniors, and they’ve experienced the love that has been given to us through TNG, by God. (:

But one thing I did not expect, was to bond as a Sec 3 cluster so much more than I’ve probably ever done. This camp allowed me to know more of my cluster, and gave me the chance to interact more with them. Our cluster is really huge, but through this camp, I’ve talked to people I haven’t really talked to before, and strengthened existing relationships. This was really quite a pleasant surprise, because I only ever imagined bonding the P6s!

I feel so thankful to God and for God in this camp. He’s been so many things, and done so much for us! As we put our faith in Him, so did He stay faithful. He’s not only helped us bond the P6s, but he added in a spice and we were bonded in the process! It’s just…so amazing. From this camp, I realise this –

If we lift everything up to God, He’ll help you through it all, and even give more than you expected. (:


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okay.

now for stuff on a more casual tone, and that you wouldn't publish in a official magazine.

the camp was awesome!
i really didn't expect to miss it so much, it was only after everything that i realised how much it meant to me, and how much it did.

i'm gonna remember everyone in camp comm for something.

david - for your perseverance and patience, and still taking up worship. you own man.
heather - for your ariel-galore.
izabel - for being the first person to call me obnoxious. (heh, though i'm sure many others still at least think it).
hanya - for your moisturised bruise, and crazy endurance in handling games.
thaddeus - THAADEEUUS!!! *heather and hanya sighs*. HAHAHAHAH.
evan - for your parkour, and your mad skillz and SANDFLY!!! WOO! oh and the hugs!
bunny - for your peserverance in insisting that i didn't tell you i changed my founder's award dates! i did loh! everyone remembered!
joann - *tilts head and smiles cheekily, without exposing teeth*. (:

eh but y'all darn bad ah, both nights must go leave me out of your fun ):

1st night - go macs without me.
2nd night - not only did y'all have 2 hrs of fun while i was asleep, y'all MADE me sleep to WRAP ME UP. and it didn't even work!!! no fun lah.

sigh, i miss you camp comm.
at least we've already had one post-camp outing! (:
but i'm not sure how long we'll last as a camp comm...
but by God's grace, if some mystical bond does keep us together, that'd be great. (:

this camp was really amazing. i'm glad we managed to help the P6s feel comforted as they enter TNG, knowing that we're there, and that the love and fun they experienced at camp can be expected in TNG. (:

thanks, all of you guys, game leaders, group leaders.
yall were done good in your effectiveness, efficiency, and energy-feeding. (:


thank You God. (:
this was a good camp indeed.

"these kind of people i'll remember..."