temptation.

5.52pm. Friday. 27/4. Year 2007.

Just about 11 more days till' mid-years.

well, things have settled down now. i still remember the 10 lines of 'screwed' i typed in as a prediction for our Chamber Orchestra's SYF.

and we got Gold with Honours!

haha, sighh...

everytime in school, got motivation to study.
come back from school, get tempted to play.
wth.

my life's a mess.
you've got the S on one side.
and the TC on the other.

awkward.
real awkward.

some philosophy!

Does God give us, humans, a choice in what we do?
God is omnipotent. He's the past, present, future. He can do anything. He is the almighty one.

He knows everything.
and then you come to a standstill.

wait a second, does that mean God controls our choices?
He knows the past, present and future.
If he knows our future, then would we be able to say we can choose our actions, or anything at all?

"He knows our future, but we still make the choices!"

ahh. right. but that means we didn't have the freedom to make our choices. There can only be one future, and that future is made up by every single touch of effect right now.
if the future is known, our choices are inevitable. God can't be wrong.

Looking at the bible, just think about it.
Many things about Jesus were foretold in the old testament.

Obviously, the future was known then.

But what about Judas...
- Betrayer of Christ

But if he didn't betray Christ, Christ wouldn't have died on the cross for our sins.
And it was foretold, that Judas would betray Jesus!

So...it was inevitable that Judas did that horrible crime. Did Judas go to hell for causing the cruxifixion of Christ Our Lord? Wasn't it his duty to do so? Wasn't it all planned?

Saying...
that everything we do, is already inevitable.

Look at me writing this blog. I can choose not to post it. Thus, in the future, it will never be seen by more than 2 pairs of eyes. God's and mine. Yet, can I choose?
If God knows my every action, that means I'm bound to only one move.
I can't choose, cos my future is already sealed with his knowledge.

Is that what it's like for us? God controls our every move, and to think about it, in the end, we go to hell or heaven based on fate?

Which means...God must already know where we're going when we die. And God can't be wrong. So does that mean whenever someone does something, it's not his fault, cos God knew it was going to happen?

We can't control anything...
everything's already pre-planned for us...

i need answers. help.

om and syf.

whee. we won om, spontaneous for div 2 problem 3 and 5, and also LTP div 2 problem 5, winning overall.

but it was really quite a spoiled moment.

instead of being to enjoy the excitement and sheer happiness of listening to our team's name being read out for the title of champion, i went up smiling with the same skill used in our skit.

acting.

well, i guess i was a bit happy at that time, but just moments before i felt super depressed by the big loss of championship for Cao's, Cherum's, Jin's, Hadi's, jlow's, daniel's, and paul's team. the year 5 team. because honestly, they were the pro-est among all of us, and if they didn't win, it would be very miserable. and it was.

ahh well, hopefully they'll still get to go worlds. that's mote important now. stupid hands-on spontaneous pulled them down. wth. go die lah spon.

casting aside om and our skit of noah's ark and chameleon and spontaneous problems of strings and pictures of houses, life's gonna have to resume for a while. only after mid year's exams that we'll retrigger the energy of om. but for now....sighhhh.

S is still as irritating as ever. stupid. Super annoying. Distracting me in class and all. Can't concentrate as much as I could before S was in my life. Stupid S. Nice eye candy. Nice rabbits. Nice lao gong. nice all whatever crap you do. i don't care.

syf's coming!!!! oh no!!! we're screwed.

screwed.screwed.screwedscrewed.screwed.screwed.screwed.
screwed.screwed.screwed.screwed.screwed.screwed.screwed
screwed.screwed.screwed.screwed.screwed.screwed.screwed.
screwed.screwed.screwed.screwed.screwed.screwed.screwed.
screwed.screwed.screwed.screwed.screwed.screwed.screwed.
screwed.screwed.screwed.screwed.screwed.screwed.screwed.
screwed.screwed.screwed.screwed.screwed.screwed.screwed.
screwed.screwed.screwed.screwed.screwed.screwed.screwed.
screwed.screwed.screwed.screwed.screwed.screwed.screwed.
screwed.screwed.screwed.screwed.screwed.screwed.screwed.
screwed.screwed.screwed.screwed.screwed.screwed.screwed.

FRIDAY. WE ARE GONNA DIE.

(ok. i'm not one who really likes caps, but that's all for emphasis).

ONLY 4 MORE PRACTICES!!

(again. for emphasis).

yepp, things are going ok. we're only so depressed cos the Year 5s didn't win, i got loads of school work that i need to do, syf's soon and we're far from perfect, and i suck at singing classically.

but other than that, things are fine. :)

~ryan

& don't mind the frikkin typos if any.